累了~

我们

总是累了

却又不愿意承认

以我举个例子

我累了 哭了

只愿意自己分享

一些事情

总得自己承担

不愿意承认

我讨厌了

讨厌筑起一道保护墙

讨厌不真诚的对待

讨厌破坏我心情的人

讨厌默默地躲起来哭

讨厌一切我不愿意想起的冷言冷语

好讨厌 好讨厌

总是想着吃亏当吃补

总是怀念着美好的滋味

总是相信生活可以过得很快乐

却总是不愿意承认自己的脆弱

不甘愿被人抄袭后

最后的矛头却指向自己

不甘愿懒得澄清后

最后被一致认定的问题都算在我的头上

不甘愿相信一个人以后

背叛总是发生在我身上

生活

真是过得好累

我慢慢筑起的保护色

也即将面临崩溃

能陪伴我度过这一切的

只有一些人

最近是怎么了~

今天终于得空上网了...

开了姐妹, 盈的frenster...

忽然发现...

我们应该不再是姐妹了...

她和俊德似乎发生了一些事...

在她难过的时候...

我并不是她第一位倾诉者...

其实是我没发现...

过去的一切已经成为了过去...

就连她的profile也再没有我的出现...

究竟一切什么时候变了...

我也不再知道了...

曾经...

我们是形影不离的...

曾经...

我们之间并不存在任何的秘密...

曾经的曾经...

都在不知不觉的情况下改变了...

好想知道...

却又不晓得该如何开口...

毕竟她有了新的姐妹...

有了新的生活方式...

一切都已变得好陌生...

唉... T.T

wat should i do??

d memoriez r nt lasting anymore....

... u c le den u noe...

其实的确未想过

不能够再与你牵着手

委屈的时候

已没有你再陪着我心痛

原来一切都是我太过骄纵

自以为你会懂

一直忘了告诉你

究竟我对一切有多么地感动

我知道仍然还爱着你

虽然分开的理由我们都已接受

你知道我还是很难过

所以直到最后还微笑地为我加油

我知道我还放不下你

在会在离开时闭着眼没有回头

我们都知道彼此的心中

其实这份爱未停过

曾经那完整幸福的梦

仍然还在脑海里头

我有多么希望你

还在我的左右

答应你

我会继续好好过

不再让

这些眼泪都白流

---- 我知道 by By2 [ edited ]

finally...

谢谢你 琪

是你让我明白到我们只是有一小段的误会

挣扎了那么久的苦恼

终于都还是在你的努力下解开了

我明白一切承诺所存在的意义

姐妹不是说解散就解散的

当初我所苦恼的是一切的突变

那让我措手不及的难过

现在的我只会对着别人建起一道墙

而不是你们 还有我的朋友

既然问题都已经解开

我不会在难过

我不会怪你

因为愤怒会让人忘记了理智

现在让我们一起订下承诺

不会再隐藏自己的难过

姐妹 还是姐妹 ^^

i think i noe wat's happen now...

view jor ur blog...

well, i noe wat's happen...

err... i noe tat how i explain oso no use jor...

hmm... =="

err... i reli cant rmb wat happened tat time...

hmm... mayb...

nth lar... aikz....

juz... if tis is betrayed...

den nth i can say...

hmm... anyway...

juz add oil in exam bahx...

i'm lucky cuz u'r stay ft me...

well... i noe...

u'r stil stay ft me, my zi mui, Qi~ ^^

i'm happy tat u stil treat me vry gud...

u stil k abt me...

no matter i'm sad, happy o moody...

u told me...

i can share my secret ft u...

i noe... ^^ i wil too...

eheee....

nt juz Qi stay ft me o...

n oso all d member of c.j.l.y.y gang... ^^

we r all d best...~

well, all exam +u+u o...

i late to post again... xD

hmm... yesterday was mother's day o...

i wake up at 9 sumthing cuz...

i gt extra tuition for acc... T.T

nvm lar... hmm...

exam starting today oso... sad...

sooooooooooo hard ar...

wuwu~ T.T

well... yesterday i celebrated ft my mum n bro...

bro belanja... nt me...

cuz i vry vry poor nehx... xD

although my mum oways said i'm rich...

ehee... ^^

i take alot of pic yesterday leh...

ahahaha... perasan... i noe... ^^

i choosed a red in colour de long-sleeved shirt for my bro...

ehee... bt i'm so sad....

my bro choose my mum buy tat shirt to wear to work today...

wuwu~ soooooooooooo sad...

aikz... ==

Hmm... dunno wat to say...

well...
yesterday i din post anything cuz it's too late...
so, now to post sumthing le lar...

i feel tat tis year reli too many things nid to worry...
d first, i worry i cant pass my exam...
summore, suddenly a fren said like me...
lolz... i hv no mood to accept anyone...
bt seems like my frens [ ps: sum gals ] r trying to force me to accept him...
i noe i cant, so i try to explain ft him...
bt hor... he seems like dunno wat i trying to tell him o...
sighhh~ ==

i scare if i too straight away, he wil gt hurt...
mayb steven is right...
sumtimes if u din straight away tell him d truth,
he wil juz oways gt hurt...
hmm... i oso dunno wan how...
tat's a big trouble....!

moreover, i feel tat i like to b alone...
mayb all things r changing...
although is my zi mui, i oso feel wan to go far away...
they r changing gua...
they start to close ft d ppl tat i dislike...
they noe i dun like... bt they stil doin tat to hurt me...

zi mui..? fren..?
tat r juz nth... they dun k abt my feeling...
so wat i nid to k abt them..?
they din lasting d promises...
all promises from them r juz nth...!

well... i juz dun k it anymore...
i try to let all of it over...
bt... i noe i cant...
i believe them... i trust tat they r nt reli wan to hurt me...
bt... tat's nt same like wat i trusting...

mayb... i'm d problem...
i scare to gt hurt, so i juz far away from them...
i dun like to b alone actually...
bt they r forcing me to b alone...
i reli dunno wat they r thinking...
they r doin sumthings tat i hate...
so, should i... let it over?

hmm... mayb there is no one can tell me...
i wil juz keep it as my secret...
forever n ever...

突然 好陌生

闪烁着星光的夜空

对我而言

那加深了我的落寞

她们的眼神

深邃得让我渐渐地退缩

那莫名的恐惧

有种似曾相识的感觉

她们~

似乎违背了承诺

亦很努力地删掉我们的回忆

姐妹~

难道就是这样的吗？

我不明白

究竟做错了什么

让她们对我加重了心防

我很难过

不晓得怎么愈合这个伤口

心变得疯狂地难过

Aikz...

Let it over lar... T.T

i dun wanna care anymore...